pregnancy week by week

Monday, 29 December 2008

Up and down

According to Dr. Amy's ovulation calculator this is my 'fertile' week. New Year's Eve is supposed to be the day I ovulate, even thought I'm feeling a bit crampy at the moment. Baby Center's ovulation calculator seems to correspond with Dr. Amy's. I suppose they're all based on the same principle. I know I said I'm going to relax and let nature take it's course and stuff, but that is harder to do than I thought it would be. Rudi and I have been trying every 48 hours for the past week or so and will continue to do so for a while I guess. That being said, if I don't fall pregnant this month I will surely lose my mind. We can't miss the ovulation window if we're trying so often, can we?

Fertility Friend seems to have ovulation calculation down to a science, but I was never really good at science and haven't bought the thermometer I would need to monitor my BBT (Basal Body Temperature).

I really should be patient and stop worrying about it. I know this. I know it will happen 'when it's meant to' like I've been told over and over again by various people. Truth be told I don't want to wait. I'm sure I've even said it myself, but it sounds so cliched and I don't want to hear it anymore.

Just writing this post is difficult. One minute I'm all gung ho being pregnant and the next I'm thinking I should just go with the flow and let it happen whenever.

Maybe I just hate not having control over it. Even if I am pregnant this month there will be the agonizing three months to follow to see if everything is OK. I suppose that's going to come whenever it happens.

FFS. I'm so conflicted.


Unknown said...

The only thing that helped me was charting my temps, but I could never be bothered doing it online, I printed the charts and kept them next to my bed. You have to take temps before you get out of bed and/or have anything to eat or drink anyway, and if I didn't do that I forgot. You don't need a special thermometer, just a normal digital one works perfectly fine ;)
Good luck :)

acidicice said...

Thanks Jenty. I'll probably do it online. I'm an internet junkie :oP

Truth be told I'm probably just too lazy to chart my temperature and stuff at the moment. I guess I'll get my bum into gear if it starts taking too long.