Friday, 13 March 2009

Bitter

Another colleague came to tell me she is pregnant today. She said she didn't know how to tell me. While she's probably ecstatic (she's been trying for some time) she feels guilty that she got pregnant before me.

Have I become so bitter and unapproachable? I don't want to be that person.

I can't help it! FFS. I hate feeling this way. I feel like crying. I feel like crying because I feel like a bad person. AND because I'm not pregnant.

5 comments:

momcat said...

Everybody's life is different and things happen at different times. Give yourself a break. You will fall pregnant when it is meant to happen. You have already been pregnant so its not like you cannot. I fell pregnant with my 3rd child 8 years after the first and 5 years after the second. Hormones work like this : the less you worry about something the better they work. Also instead of being bitter, hang around people with babies and hold the babies a lot.

Anonymous said...

acidicice
what you are feeling is 100% totally normal and you know that from all the websites for those of us who have lost babies along the way - i am still madly jealous of pregnant friends but totally ok with babies - as when they come out its different - so what you are feeling is COMPLETELY normal - dont beat urself up about it - you need a long time to recover from such a terrible shock
michxxx

supermom said...

It is completely understandable that you feel this way. (((hugs)))

Jeanette said...

(((HUGS))) I completely understand.
That feeling only went away once I'd successfully got to 12 wks pregnancy.

Wenchy said...

I think your emotions are very normal.