Monday, 16 March 2009

Bad memories

I remember lying on the bed at the gynae, really eager to find out the sex of our baby. I remember my blood running cold.

What's wrong, mommy?

I remember frantically crying in the toilet at the specialist's office...begging out loud that nothing be wrong with our baby.

Why is mommy crying?

I remember how hard it was. How conflicted I was. Waking up in the middle of the night in tears.

Why is mommy upset all the time?

I remember how difficult it was to start taking the tablets to induce labour.

What's happening, mommy?

I remember the whole painful experience. Every detail of it.

Why am I dying, mommy?

*has a big cry*

11 comments:

Wenchy said...

I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

That is truly so sad - I am so sorry for what you had to go thru.

Gen

Sarah said...

I am so sorry that you had to go through this.

JaneW said...

**HUGS**

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Jeanette said...

(((HUGS)))
It's the worst thing to ever have to do :( I'm in tears for you.

Jax said...

I am very very sorry.

Solitaire said...

I can't imagine what that must be like I am sorry

supermom said...

I am so sorry. I am so sad for you

supermom said...

I am so sorry. I am so sad for you

acidicice said...

Thank you

angel said...

Oh acidicice...
I'm crying too.